Author – Hope Ukaegbu
2020…what a year you’ve been!
You’ve been crazy to me. You showed me life much more than I’d ever thought I would experience.
In January, I did not know how my life was going to turn out…I was living life on a day to day basis. I thought I was done with the world…with life. And then I became hopeful in Feb.
There was this new hope in me. One hope for the future, another that it will be alright. So, I ran away from someone I was losing my peace over, into the arms of someone who took advantage of me until I was of the very belief that “the devil you know is way better than the angel you do not know.”
So I ran back to the “devil” in march.
The devil welcomed me so well that I thought he had changed. We got along so well, in my heart it felt like a fresh start. An excellent one at that. I was so wrapped up in trying to make things work this time around that I stayed quiet in times when I should have talked and defended myself.
I thought I had finally learnt to handle him but boy, was I wrong. By September, I realized I had lost sight of my value. I mean, how had I become his robot without my permission?
So I came to myself, made a decision and stood firm in it. I threw out the devil the very day he had the guts to tell me to my face that I had hallucinated our fresh start. And i never went back…even with all his entices. I had won against the devil.
October gave me a new and much better job. It was stressful but as soon as I embraced it for real, it got really better. Enjoyable even. I didn’t have much time to myself but my productivity compensated me. I actually beat my chest hard a few times, my mouth forming words that can only be described as “well done.”
Now, November is almost done and yes I’m looking into the New Year for what it has in store for me… but before 2021 starts, there are still some things I want.
I want to be happy, I want to be free, I want more money…more food.
Ha! More body weight too.
Also…I’m not desperate but I want an angel. A verified angel! The one that would stay forever with me and never turn into a devil.
And lastly, I want a closer relationship with “My Chi.”